lately i’ve been thinking a lot about what i want to be when i’m older. the more i think about this, the more i am unsure. it’s not that i absolutely have to choose my career now, but it would be much easier for me to know. i don’t want to worry about this, but i can’t help it. because of the school i go to, people assume that i want to be something in the medical field. there’s nothing wrong with that (because i’m pretty sure that’s where i’m headed), but i don’t have a reason. like, if someone were to ask me specifically why the med field, i wouldn’t know what to say. so i’m faced with another question i can’t really answer. do i want to be in the med field for the prestige? the money? the status? or because this is something i really and truly enjoy and want. i’m not going to sugar coat my answer and give the cliché, “i want to help people.” yes, that should be one of the reasons,but i’m pretty sure that many people in the med field who say that don’t mean it. sure, the human body is fascinating but other than that, i don’t have a legit reason to back up this need to be a doctor. maybe it is just money. that’s not good.
